stressed and distressed
1. my roommates/besties are basically moved out and i am sad about it.
2. except it hasn’t really hit me yet so i’m more just like ladeeda why is our house so empty
3. i haven’t been doing much reading or writing which occasionally makes me feel like i am BETRAYING MYSELF
4. but i’ve been having a grand time hanging out with people and going on adventures
5. i used to think i was a super introvert but people don’t really wear me out much and i am okay with not spending much time alone. in fact, sometimes people energize me. maybe i’m more middling.
6. but i think i am a super internal processor so when i am with people i am still mostly in my head.
7. also people make me kinda nervous.
8. i haven’t hung out with people really since my roommates left. i also haven’t done anything productive with myself.
9. i bought 3 books on the internets even though i haven’t finished 2 that i am kind of reading. i hope that i will want to read the new ones. cause i do LIKE reading but i just haven’t wanted to lately. or i’ve been doing too many other times.
10. i hope my mennonite boys still hang out with me even though my roommates are gone.
11. i don’t like change very much at all.
would my popsicles taste good if i dipped them in gin? …..i just want a blended drink but i don’t want to blend a drink. ya feel me?